What’s goin’ on? September 25, 2009
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I’ve a got about 15 minutes before my next class, so I figure it’d be a good time slip in some bloggage. Im hoping that people who read this are the ones that miss me and are curious to know how Oxford life is. So all you curious people – Hi! I miss you!
I ended up pulling my first all-nighter wednesday to thursday. I say this without being proud or excited at all. I had a big project due for my 2D art class, and like so many other times, I planned badly for it and got it all done when night-before pressure forced me to. I’m really hoping I get over that, because college is going to kick my butt if I continue. Anyway, I worked until about 5:30am, slept for a bit, and decided that I needed ot sleep instead of going to calculus, which is at 9:05 am. I swear that missing calc was not an I’m-being-lazy, spur of the moment decision. I knew the lesson plans, that I wouldn’t miss anything I didnt know, and huzzah – I’m pretty sure I kicked butt on the quiz this morning! There is just butt kickin’ all around. Dont get worried, though. I’m the kind of student who pretty much never misses class, so I doubt this will happen again anytime soon.
Other than that, though, everyday life has been pretty quiet. Weekdays fall into a pretty neat routine of classes, meals (if i can get them), and then homework for the rest of the night. The peak of my social life on weekdays happens to be how dressed up I get when we goto Harris for dinner. haha. “we” being Rachel and I, Rachel being my roomate’s name. Cleared that up.
It’s rained the last few days, so I’ve gotten at least my $7 worth out of my umbrella. I’ve decided most of my shoes are worn out becasue everytime I come back to the room, my feet are all wet. Even though the rain has made it alternate between choking humidity and cold dampness, I still have really enjoyed the showers. Now I dont feel so bad being inside all the time, because everyone else is too! I suppose I could keep rambling on, but I have to get ready for class now. See? I’m trying not to be a blogging failure.
Current Addictions August 11, 2009
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Printy summer skirts and dresses, orchids, bothering Tia, recycled Barnes and Nobles notebooks, making lists.
Food: Ice-cold celery sticks, fruit smoothies, Sunny Delight, pretzels dipped in chocolate frosting, Sloppy joes. Been super craving homemade wonton and my mom’s cooking.
Reading: Liebemarlene Vintage blog, Amy Tan’s Saving Fish from Drowning, boring financial aid paperwork.
TV: HEROES!
Crafting Kicks and the Value In Cookin’ Good July 30, 2009
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I consider myself to be a fairly strong-willed, independent woman. I believe that women can greater-or-equal the best of men and I have ambitions to strike out into a male dominated profession. These are just facts of life. For these reasons, it makes me chuckle when I get into Susie Homemaker moods like the last couple days. I feel like I’ve mentioned it before, but there are times in life when I get into certain modes. For example, there is fine arts mode and artsy crafty mode. There is also microwave-frozen mode and let’s-bake-with-my-apron mode. Gettin’ the drift?
I’ve been in crafty, bakey, let’s-wear-heels-and-make-cake moods for nearly a month and shamefully loving it. There have been no paintings yet this summer, but many birthday/grad cards, invitations and doodling. I feel like I’m getting the hang of this whole card thing and the last couple turned out especially nice. I used a combination of watercolor washes, sharpie, ink, and acrylic for some texture. The worst part about pulling off a card really well is that I get so proud that I want to show everyone, thereby ruining the surprise and making myself look rather inflated in the head. I’ve been cooking more, done some sewing, and became incredibly excited over buying new yarn at the flower factory. It’s pathetic.
Every other Wednesday at youth group, it’s home cookin’ night. Everyone is supposed to make something and bring it for dinner. I haven’t decided what to make this time, but a lemony chicken is sounding nice. Being housewifely might be ridiculous, but seeing someone’s face after preparing something special for them to eat makes all the silliness totally worth it. I want to write letters, make cookies, and be prim. The 50s housewife feeling is sitting well on my shoulders. Besides, there could be worse things. At least the dresses are cute.
There’s no place like 5th Street Lane. July 21, 2009
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When I came home tonight, I had to avoid my back door for fear of a man and a lady who were shouting obcenities at each other. It was all F-this and F-that, you’re a skank, you’re a bum, never-come-back, I-dont-want-you-anyways. The whole neighborhood heard how he was gonna knock her out, how she didn’t need him, how he only came back because his F-ing baby was in her belly. The woman has a kitty that escapes from time to time, and that’s the most I know of her, besides that she’s unmarried and pregnant to busting. It was ugly. The ugliness hurts me, and I hurt for them because every F-word is like a slap in the face.
Believe in Dreams you Love so Much. July 10, 2009
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Last night I dreamed that my jaws were clenched tight – tighter than I’ve ever felt. I was scared because I couldn’t open my mouth, and then I heard my teeth break. I also had a typical DI dream where I don’t feel prepared. I remember that Ian, Cassie, and Tommy were on my team, but tommy had shaved his head bald and Ian was being gay and kissed another male teammate as a joke, but the appraisers saw! Weird. This dream was different , because we were outside a door saying lines and even though I didn’t know what was happening, I thought it was our real performance and the judges couldn’t hear us. Then we have to move inside and I realize we were just waiting, and now we have to do it again, except I REALLY don’t know what’s going on this time. DI is lovely, especially in my dreams.
A few nights ago, there was one were my cousin got a hair cut that looked exactly like her aunt’s rather large, short blonde bob. I thought she accidentally squirted hair gel on my head, so I tried to squeeze and peel it out. Then blood starts running down my face, and I realize that the goopy stuff isn’t hair gel, it’s my own scalp that I’m peeling off. What the heck?!
I don’t understand why my dreams have been more violent lately. Normally, I dreamed strange, off the wall things, but nothing where I’ve been afraid. Not since I was a little kid. I’ve also dreamed some highly personal situations, which have no place on the Internet. It’s hard to forget something and pretend you don’t care anymore, when your dreams are reeling it out for you to watch. Dreams don’t lie.
Sweet Memories May 4, 2009
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Late nights, Stretched thin April 2, 2009
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I feel bogged down tonight. The kind of night where it feels like everyone keeps stepping on each other’s toes. There is so much weight on my back about school, planning stuff, picking a college, running errands, etc. I felt so overloaded that i had to sit down with a clean notebook and write every bit I could remember “to-do”. I had to make columns and bullet points and enclose each task with ballpoint squares so they wouldn’t run all over the page. I find that my fuse gets short and capacity gets full so easily these days and cling to making lists, reminders on sticky notes, and re-organizing things constantly. I am only sane because I compartmentalize by default. I am only sane because I act insane.
I wonder what would happen if I just let go of things. Would life be so bad if I just pointed to college and went there? What if I just didn’t go? Do I need to stress about planning 3 or more events at once? I fantasize about a life where I never have to worry about supporting myself or being ambitious. I don’t have huge, running lists in my brain. I focus on decorating my house, crocheting scarves, painting, reading intensely, building a tree house, sewing dresses, sending crafty little mail to people, growing plants, traveling… whatever. Right now, I’m nearly anti-feminist. Instead of stretching myself 5 directions to be “successful”, I have an irrational urge to just live for nice things – marry someone to carry me and enjoy it.
This is not who I am. I’m just tired.
Oh well April 1, 2009
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“Dear Mei Li:
The Yale Admissions Committee has completed its evaluation of this year’s candidates, and I am genuinely sorry to say that we are not able to offer you a place in the class of 2013.”
That’s that. Time to make some decisions!
Locket March 25, 2009
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This locket was a gift from my cousin's Aunt Jackie for my 18th birthday. I really, really like it.
